End-posting exam

I am genius.

I had discover how fine the thin line between madness and genius since i was small. I can be either mad or genius...

Manic episode
gosh, i think i had manic episode most of the time...People used to say that to me but i didnt mind because I am whatever they said I am. Yes, I'm always inflated self-esteem, so talkative, got lots of flights of idea,easily to be distract, always increasing in goal-directed activity and involvement in pleasurabele avtivity which result in despair. but in other hand, this is not consider as a disorder until it cause social and occupational function impaired. I'm still functioning!

Personality disorder
Azie said that i have antisocial personality as according to DSMIV, antisocial people dislike the social norms and impulsive. But then, Shena told me I have histrionic personality disorder as she said that I'm very dramatic, flamboyant and extroverted. however, these histrionic personality disorder people are unable to form long-lasting, meaningful relationships which is i'm NOT!Hehee.

Azie confessed she had obession-compulsive personality disorder as she has pervasive pattern of perfectionism, inflexibility and orderliness..(which is NOT so me!) but i doubt it she has..haha, it sound more like Fit or yani.hehe...

I like psychiatry---maybe because I wanted to be one or i like to play a joke about it...anyway, i like my supervisor although he slept (2-3seconds) when i presented my case and accidently(i think so) he gave me higher mark (sejemput je beza) than my friend.

I'm difficult and I do like it!

p/s: owh, suddenly I got narcissistic personality disorder as i got end-posting exam next 2 week! I need the confident!..however, i had to emphasize that i dont fit in any criteria in DSMIV--saja suka2 je..click on this link if u're interested to know!

Just got my result for minor posting...huhu,not a good grade although I passed...to me, that's not good enough...I'm depressed and a little bit of anxious. I know that it's ALL my fault. I know that I was not studying hard enough--Ayu just came to my room, saying that how result is the mirror of my laziness. yes, i'm so damn lazy and always sleepy. I cannot denied it. Everyone knows that-itu pengetahuan am. and the worst thing is: i tried so hard to change my bad habit but i failed. It's my bad habit. so ill-displinced.... I know that i do hv capabilities and abilities that the straight-A's didnt hv(Pujuk diri sendiri..yang sedang kecewa....). But being me, I could not accept all the stupidity just because I am sooooo lazy! Chayok Kiah!

Allah, give me the strength to change the things that i can change

Allah, give me the power to accept the weakness that I cannot change.

Someday. i'll rise again....and currently, i stop myself from using friendster. Laghro- yani changed the password to me---and maybe I would stop using to write to this blog for a while.

SOng In My heaD- Someday-flidsyde
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FlipSyde - Someday

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someday we gonna rise up on that wind
you know

someday we gonna dance with those lions

someday we gonna break free from these chains and keep on flyin'

they tellin' me it's all good just wait
you know you're gonna be there someday
sippin' on jim beam
ok gotta get these things one day
till then do another line you know
searching for that other high
stop or i gotta steal then steal kill
or i'm gonna be killed
i got a sack in my pocket conscious
yellin' drop it you know
we're gonna lose it someday
and we tryin' to hold it all together
but the devil is too clever
so i'm gonna die
you gonna die
we gonna die
someday one day i said

someday we gonna rise up on the wind you know
someday we gonna dance with those lions
someday we gonna break free from these chains
and keep on flyin'
try to lie

but it ain't me
ain't me
try to look but i can't see
can't stop right now cause i'm too far
and i can't keep goin' cause it's too hard
in the day in the night it's the same thing
on the field on the block it's the same game
on the real if you stop then it's no pain
but if you can't feel pain
then it's no gain rearrange
and you change
and it's all bad
and you try to maintain
but you fall back
and you crawl and you slip and you slide down
wanna make it to the top
better start now
so i hold my soul
and i die hard all alone in the night in the graveyard
someday one day i'm gonna be free
and they won't try to kill me for being me hey someday

someday we gonna rise up on that wind you know
someday we gonna dance with those lions
someday we gonna break free from these chains
and keep on flyin'if you know how this is gonna see

it's not that easy
don't stop get it till it's done from where you are or have begun
i said keep on try a little harder to see everything you need
to be believe in your dreams that you see when you're asleep

someday we gonna rise up on that wind you know
someday we gonna dance with those lions someday
we gonna break free from these chains and keep on flyin'