circle of friends

Alhamdulillah. the exam is finally over yesterday and Dr.Feisel announced the result today. Alhamdulillah once again, i passed! (hoho,short essay marks managed to cover the my mcq (multiple choice question yg giller ada negative marking!..and apparently only 2 people out of 25 people managed to pass..definitely not me aah!) marks.

Next posting is elective posting. yeah,i wanted to go Jogya but couldnot make it due to some of the problem.the money-transport-my mum worried about the tsunami+earth quake+bla-bla...herm,well..what to do? sometimes, we planned very hard.very smart.but then again,Allah's plan is the best perhaps! I'll be heading to Hosp. Sultanah aminah, JB this sunday for the next 6 weeks.then at last,a month holiday after a year without a holiday break! (except for raya)

i'm going to be in fifth year next June! Alhamdulillah- yipee! at last..i couldnt believe that i havent fail for the last 4 years of suffering. Only 1 year left. in 2008, i'm going to be a hardworking doctor (owh-poyos!)...

Life is kinda sux.having unwilling friends to hear the problems that i had.i hate to go around and tell my problem. those people couldnt think how important them in my life.then left me alone saying, "u'r being so emosional". yes, I am sensitive when I stuck in the problem.just like human being... but i'm the one who willing to stay awake crying together whenever my friends insist..maybe i'm stupid.perhaps. but i know how hurt am i when i felt alone in this world.

life is suck.but life could not hurt me so much as i'm aware of the cruelity in this world. but what i hate the most when i just found out that i dont have good support circle. semua nak pikir masalah dorg.bila tiba masalah dorg,tau pulak nak datang. what? do they think my inner coping mechanism so powerful?

the circle of friends. how big is the circle? and how powerful is my circle?...yeah, it's funny. i could not find some comfort shoulder to cry on in the right time..iyelah,semua sibuk dengan pakwe masing2.pre-occupied with their boyfriend. small but very important circle with big radar.these kidda people often forget the people around them who need them more than they own boo...

i'm not complaining about being single. i like being single. no matter those mockering mouth said how 'tak laku', 'andartu' (hey,i'm only 23 y/o-deh!), 'sombong'-bla-bla-bla.. i got my family to take care of..and i got huge circle of friends who need me...although some of them might not b beside me when i need a pat behind me or hug to comfort me. they even did not want to lend their ears to let my emotion revealed itself. why dont these jerk stupid people just ask, how do i feel today?

perhaps i just dont need anyone else like everyone else? gosh- i wish i could be invicible no matter how people hurt my feeling. but then, i like being sensitive as i could detect the sadness in the people's eye (oho-suka ati aku aaa,aku dah rasa rendah diri-kasik grandiose sikit..hahaha)..

Outlandish- i only ask of God...

I only ask of God
He won't let me be indifferent to the suffering
That the very dried up death doesn't find me
Empty and without having given my everything

I only ask of God
He won't let me be indifferent to the wars
It is a big monster which treads hard
On the poor innocence of people
It is a big monster which treads hard
On the poor innocence of people

People...people, people

I only ask of God
He won't let me be indifferent to the injustice
That they do not slap my other cheek
After a claw has scratched my whole body

I only ask of God
He won't let me be indifferent to the wars
It is a big monster which treads hard
On the poor innocence of people
It is a big monster which treads hard
On the poor innocence of people

People...people...people

Solo le pido a Dios
Que la guerra no me sea indiferente
Es un monstro grande y pisa fuerte
Toda la pobre inocencia de la gente
Es un monstro grande y pisa fuerte
Toda la pobre inocencia de la gente

People...people...people

p/s: gambar hiasan. hidup mesti pandang hadapan. tapi tak salah pegang kenangan....iyelah,kalau tak takde pulak orang beli barang buat kenang-kenangan..haha