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Your Personality is Very Rare (ENFJ)

Your personality type is dramatic, expressive, proud, and demanding. Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 5% of all women and 2% of all men You are Extroverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Judging.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

uh-oh.
people used to meet me would said, "u'r the one of the weirdest people i hd ever met".

dan aku digelar "makhluk aneh, jgn ditegur" time p sabah 2thn lepas.

ape nie..ni yg rasa depersonalization ni. haha.otak tak btul,bontot sengal p revision kelas 8pagi smp 6ptg..mcm biasa,aku kena narcolepsy..memang aneh,aku skrg dah euphoric. elevated mood (tp aku tetap tak mgaku hypomanic atau manic pun..kgumbiraan aku adalah pilihan aku sendiri.sbb aku dah tak larat nk stress stress tgk byk byk byk giller giller giller buku yg aku tak abes bc. tatawlaaa mcne aku nk xm next week..tp aku seriusly tak larat deh nk study lagi. jerawat pun mletup2...tlg laa,houseman pun 2thn,kasik laa aku chance weih.

nk tau ape yg mbuatkan kita happy?
jadi diri sendiri. buat pilihan sendiri.dan kata org yg mn2 utk pbaiki diri kita sendiri stakat yg mampu, amek...yg kata org yg sgt mcerca, BUANG AJE. eleh,kalau org yg mgata tu bagus sgt,np tak pun.hahahahaha..tak payah nk meet expectation org. let's loose. yg penting kita kena berjasa. tu yg plg penting. tak guna keta bmw, jam rolex, muka licin, bdn slim tapi hati takde eppi.

gmbira tu pilihn. jd pilihlah kgumbiraan..
hidup mesti gum gum gum gum gum biraaaa!

okaylaa..papai. nk p study grup.huhu

corner baring.

Xm is just around the corner baring.

yep,i think i cannot be a pontianak at last. need enough sleep for my brain. Thankful gak laa my uni provide about 6weeks of revision week but then pity them for having such pemalas student like me laa kan. Mr Kwan pun nasihat kena cukup tidur 7jam sehari..aku ikut nasihat dia(yg tu ikut, tapi bab study..haahhahahahahah..kantoi!)

Last week sibuk dgn revision kelas nearly everyday. plus dgn 2 study grup. intensive. dammit,mmg otak social-animal betul lah, i really cant study alone..hehe..baru masuk sikit..tp kesian gak laa kat study group aku asek ada endless ketawa-ketawa dan ketawa.. i should be badut instead of a doctor laa.huhu

Waaa, aku suka prof ortho aku tue... dia tu kelakar tahap king dan dia mgajar bersungguh2. Idola baru aku seriusly! hehe. walaupun kena," why are you looking like that? like paralysis chicken?".."hey lamp post, answer my low IQ questions!".. diakhir kelas,"let's commit suicide together"..dia best tahap king! best-best. at least ortho lecturers mgajar bersungguh2 gak laa nk myelamatkan anak muridnya yg terkapai2. dari majority kitaorg takut giller dgn medicine yg mcm hancur giller.

Prof meah yang baru selamat buat angiogram pun datang bagi briefing, respek giller2 deh depa ni..umur dah 70-80lebey pun ada kudrat nak p buat teaching lagi..Prof myint tun pun macho gak..kalau boleh nak suruh hafal satu buku bailey n love laa kan. Kat akhir kelas,dia nasihat, "u malaysian people are soo lucky. please remember that.if u think u'r stress, please remember that malaysia is the luckiest country in south east asia to compare with my country in Mymmar.. (aku tkedu actually)"

I am now free of my moody emosional state..no point at all, being sad and stress about small small things. lagi2 sebab exam...tapi permasalahn pulak ,orang tgk aku terlalu rileks. ape nak jadi, jadiklaa...aku rasa aku sukakan diri aku yg eppi meppi tanpa pedulikkn apa org nak cakap, apa yang aku tau, aku tak nak buat dosa. tu je yg penting! hehe!Dr nazri cakap 16mei ni dah tertulis pun sape yg lepas dan sape tak lepas di Luh Mahfuz. jadik tak jadik, lambat atau tidak..insyallah akan jadik doktor. aku nak jadik org yg berani mghadapi apa2 jua pun keadaan..tapi aku mestila

Lecturers aku ni macam malaikat laa..

Let's pray for upm medical student 100% passing rate. wpun ada ura kata wajib 10% fail! jomle, aku tau lecturers pun sangat tak larat nak handle student yg pmalas mcm aku nie, might as well pass me in the exam!

Aku & fieza...jln2 di trolak buat perangai

Doakan gak pada kawan baik aku Fieza Ariff sbb dia kena acute PID (mind u, it's not pelvic inflammatory disease but Prolapse Intervebral Disc). She's a known case of PID since a year ago, done operation, discectomy. Dulu L5-S1 disc yg affect, sekarang ni part L4-L5. pity her, nnt exam pun dia kena naik wheelchair,sbb sakit giller..wpun skrg lecturers aku tgh bincang boleh ke tak dia amek xm dgn keadaan dia yg mcm tue ..lagi2 time osce tu mcm kena gerak, plus ada praktical laa, kot2 kena buat cpr ke, nak buat short case? kalau kes ortho tak ke naya....dia ada neulogical deficit, loss of sensory over lateral side of the leg, weakness of dorsiflex..jalan pun slow2. Dia duk ulang, "mcane aku nak amek xm, macamne aku nak keja houseman karang".. takpe, acute PID tu, once dia dapat enough bed rest, insyallah okay laa tue..doa-doakan laa dia eh...i hvnt get the chance to visit her laa,takde keta. masa pun takde pun actually. waa, kalau tak mesti aku boleh kacau dia every night kat sebelah bilik aku...aku sedey giller. i mean, dia tu best friend aku masa first time aku jejak kaki kat upm.nyanyi sama2 masa tanam pokok, p sabah sama2, masuk kelas lambat2 time preclincal years, study kat blok C sama2, sama2 sesat cari klcc masa muda2 dulu, main kejar2 tgh malam, main rollerblade sama2, buat keja giller sama2, mkn keropok lekor sama, org 1st kasi semgt aku utk jadik perempuan (masih tak bjaya!)shopping sama2. otak pun sama2 sengal. hati dia baik giller dan sangat innocent. Dia special bg aku sbb dia slalu tak tau nk judge org mcne. aku syg giller kat minah nie. skrg tak rapat sgt sbb dia bukan sama kump sama dgn aku, tapi still kitaorg kalau jumpa 'update' masing2 mcm tak cukup jam aje. waaa, aku asek nk nangis je bile teringat kat dia...Fieza, kau jahat buat aku nangis...cepat2laa sihat. i am praying for the miracle.because u'r my miracle friends.

Nurul akmal, usrah mate aku gak.. pun baru je discharge dari wad sebab dengue haemorhagic fever. a week duk kat dalam wad. alhamdulillah, sekarang dah sihat.Aku sangat terasa seolah2 tercubit peha kanan, terasa peha kiri... sorg lagi member chinese aku, arap2 lepas eventhough dgr citer kena tahan sbb tak datang kelas sebab ada necrotising fasciitis (dia ada DM-type 1). waa..tak syok betul lah bila batch mate tak lulus xm sama2. tak kira. walaupun a bit impossible. sorg kena tahan exam sbb tak complete forensic posting. sorg dengar citer kena tahan sbb kena depression..adeh macam-macam laa mak enon.

Uni lain mcm semua dah habes xm. majority 10% failing rate.,,yg dah pass tue, dah boleh enjoy menjoy sambil hantar msg kgembiraan mgajak aku keluar. panas sungguh..huhu..

Ape-ape pun. wish me luck laa exam kali nie.

Fanamenon

Happy birthday to Farhana Muhammad mohaidin(budak pandai ni,cikgu geng 5 aku ni) dan Izeharudin Abd Mutalib (classmate aku yg plg cool dulu,skrg dah jd seorg engineer tnb yg berjaya..kau jgn kene letric shock sudah, 3rd degree burn tue!) on 23 april 2008. hadiah? lepas exam..dan juga pada naqibah daku yg sangat pyabar.. Dr Nurul Yaqeen Mohd Esa yang selamat di Durian Belanda dgn 2 anaknya yg comel dan suaminya on 19 april 2008.

wuik, korg bertiga share quite same personality. pyabar. hehehe. May Allah bless these special people!

Betulah. i dont mind being single as i thought...as long as my angels are around me (plus healthy & happy too), i am euphoric enough! God..bless us...i know it's not something yg boleh ditukar2. to me, my family and friends are also a taste from heaven. i think i am getting bored with being single issue, look..i am happy the way i am. pls dont make me feel i am empty or alien just because i dont hv one...to me,i let Allah to decide. I love my family and friends so dearly. until i know somewhat i'm too pre-occupied with them.

i am soo damn enjoying my angels around me.

okaylaa, kiah hv too study. byk giller nak cover...sabar sabar..1 week only. dunt crack under pressure!

psychiatric in the very nutshell

Revision for psy

For most local uni in Malaysia, usually our professional xm is quite similar. 1long case and 3 short case. plus mcq, meq and osqe. stress tak stress? sape tak stress, okay! macam2 cerita aku dengar-ada yg kena panic attack, ada yg kena admit wad, ada yg kena amek anti-depression...huhu,ada yg aku dgr citer dah commit suicide dah pun..hahaha...tapi aku still okay kut,just easily hypersensitive sikit-sikit aje...sape yg tak stress time xm besau ni, mybe kena refer to psychiatric sbb abnormal, avolition kut...haha

Long case defined as u hv to clerk full history, buat physical examination for an hour then present to 3examiner then those 3 people can asked anything under the sun for half an hour -ni yg stress giller bcause any case pun boleh, namely orthopedic,surgery,medicine,paediatric,obs n gynae and psychiatric too!). sure lah, 6 different specialist ada different method in taking history. and the student pun tak tau laa ape yg dia dapat. then short case when u only hv 10min to show off the showmanship and confident in front of the 3examiner the skill of examine the patient. any case pun boleh dapat except psychiatric laa-kau giller ke ape, mana boleh spot diagnosis org tu mereng ke tak!!!

satu cerita kelakar during pro xm -i dunno which uni lah tp uni yg dah abes xm:

THe chief complain was back pain for a year. then the student pun innocently
clerk mcm orthopedic py style, kat mana,radiate to where, intensity of pain, any
occupation related? bla bla bla...after an hour, examiner tu dengar aje dgn
seiklas yg mungkin..then after presented untol history of presenting illness.
examiner asked the student,

"did u asked the patient why he had the back pain for a year?".

The student pun tried laa tu answer, it might be idiopathic, perhaps prolapse intervetebral disk? something pathological lah...

"No, please ask the patient again for half an hour more." the examiner insist.

The patient's answer was: "Ultraman yang cucuk saya, sebab tu saya sakit belakang"

dang! kena wat Mental state examination (which the doctor dont usually asked if he think u'r still sane. podah... )
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pyebab orang sakit belakang!! berhati2..dia mampu mbuat anda sakit!!

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read Erikson's 8 stage

People owh people!

1. trust vs Mistrust (oral stage)
2. Autonomy vs Shame and Doubt (anal)
3. Initiative vs guilt (genital)
4. Industry vs inferiority (latency)
5. Identity vs identity confusion (adolescence)
6. Intimacy vs. Isolation
7. Generativity vs. Stagnation
8. Integrity vs Despair
   

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why drive people mad
read also: Lord of the flies



Prof brian suruh kitaorg baca buku ni, but until now tak carik2 sbb kaplan or oxford psychiatric pun aku tak abes2 baca..nnt lps xm laa kut.hahaha. everything has reaction. mybe people can go beyond their own mind... that's explain why sometimes people can be very very jerk amek hak2 orang lain, marah2 orang lain, sgt self fish and everything bila terdesak...eventhough orang2 tersbut adalah normal pada pikirannnya! Human is still a human. not a robot.
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akhlak


Islam kan dah ajar. Akhlak is something that knee-jerk, sifat tanpa perlu berfikir. Nak tgk akhlak sesorg tu time dia tengah marah.

Akhlak ketika terlanggar orang "ops,saya mintak maaf" atau "oi, buta ke ape?".
Akhlak ketika mmohon pertolongn, "boleh tak kalau saya mintak tolong..." atau "saya nak awak buat ....".
Akhlak ketika orang tegur/nasihat, "Okay, saya mintak maaf diatas kesalahan saya,...." atau "Kau peduli ape dgn hidup aku, suka ati aku laa..kau tu mcm le bagus sangat!"

Jadi, i think no matter what actually, as a muslim, akhlak kena tip top kalau dapat maintain 'kewarasan' terhadap ingatan pada Tuhannya..to me,whatever it is, yes..kita semua ada perasaan..tapi buang jauh2 yg tak relevan tu.

akhirat kan ada.apa nak bising2...

easy to say than done eh? tak cakap pun senang..tapi ...kalau dalam otak tu duk cakap susah, memangle jadik susah...bolehlaa kalau nak salahkan itu ini keadaan cuaca hujan panas ribut, tapi at last sape yg untung?...ingatan pada diri yg emos emos.hehehe..sgt le perempuan!

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Topik wajib dihafal:

1. schizophrenia dan rakan2
2. Bipolar disorder
3. Depression
4. Panic disorder.ocd.bla bla bla
5. adjustment disorder


seriusly, aku tak abes lagi baca...i dunt want to sound too academic actually.............waaaaaa~whatever it is..i hope i dont crack under pressure laaa..as my friends often waited: bila hang nak stress nie? okay, skrg saksikan...waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......tlg tlg..kemaruk nak lulus xm..tapi masih bermalas2 (premorbid personality!),..terasa seperti...kemaruk nak masuk syurga, tapi masih bersetan-setan (gulp!)..inilah orang tak sedar diri....alamak, one day nk revise psychiatric pun tak cukup..belasah ajelah..waaa...bgamne ini??

buku2 yg tak begitu tebal.

stupid emos

Your Life Is Worth...

$1,239,500

How Much Is Your Life Worth?

I really thought my life is lagi mahal aaa...sejuta je? aku ingat dia nak tulis : tak boleh dinilai ke...

okay, okay, i am so sorry...kena marah this period of time really make me feel so mad.lagi2 hal yang kacau pride aku. mybe aku ni ego sangat. perhaps perhaps.

Sleep deprivation can cause epilepsy. others might get migraine. I got neither one but mood swing, easily irritate. How i wish I am perfect..,i dunno how am i gonna work next 3-4months with my emotional hijacking. Maybe i should go a bit far away so i wont hurt someone that i actually love.

Dammit, i still hv lots things to learn.. I really dunno how am i gonna to pass my pro xm III this time. Gotta be strong. but i know how i feel so myesal for not having serius mind and definately not hardworking attitude...

Well, apparently... i start to think how weird, abnormal and atypical human being I am after i figure out i am way too different with my friends.the way of my very simple thinking and laid back attitude... I wish i could feel special rather than a difficult person. I know life is not a matter of simple equation of mathematic. It doesnt apply easily like that. It's not penakulan mantik. it's not 1+1=2. ..

I am an impulsive person. I dont read motivation book to build rapport with other people. I dont hv any hidden agenda when i talk with anyone else. Plus, i am not out for praise anyway. I dunt care what you-you-you think about me. what do i really know, i want to live to fullest. to live in lively life

it's still hurts when someone point out your mistake and making you start to think there's no way out and wishing that you could reboot and restart your life. How you start to wish you have seriusly perfect mind. Because when we have perfect mind, perfect attitude..we'll be able to survive.even in stupid-cold-imperfect life.

No, i never commit big-big mistakes. except for yesterday when my prof said twice how I confused when I answer his questions. I really hate to appeared so stupid but i really hv short span attention. Okay, i also begin to feel fed up with my stupid emotional phase. and aku pun dah muak dgn isi2 blog ni tak abes citer pasal diri aku sendiri. sgt self-centered btul. i'm getting bored. but i start to think, this small matter pun tak boleh handle, benda2 lagi besar? How i wish i hv steel heart. Macam robot ke, at least i dunt hv this stupid emos. be patient

Well, life is indeed not perfect. but it's fair. I shall control my temper and emotional. But trust me, when u have difficult emotional -the heart of atypical-abnormal-alien heart that u urself d0 not understand yourself,it's harder than u could even think until to some extent, you will rather not to bother about it anymore perhaps..

Your EQ is 140

You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. You are warm and open. Even when life gets you down, you're unafraid of the world and its challenges.Your emotions aren't always stable, but you can go along with the ups and downs pretty well. You are comfortable with who you are. And you accept your weaknesses - as well as the weaknesses of others. While you are quite stable, you don't respond perfectly to every bad situation that comes up. But you have enough emotional intelligence to know when you need a course correction.

What's" Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

yang ni aku pelik.aku jawab seiklas yang mungkin..tapi part: i dont respond perfectly to every bad situation that comes up" ..tu mmg betul kut... huhu

This is my blog. it's up to me to write anything, including my misery. Kan dah cakap...pontianak mmg marah kalau dihalang untuk buat apa yang dia suka. plus, it's only took me 15minutes to write to ease my misery,not so much of time to compare with 2-3hours of crying-talking-counselling. i think blog helps!

Shine

Siapa yang terbaik diantara kita semua? Dan kenapa semua orang berlumba2 untuk merasakan dirinya lebih baik dari orang lain. Mgutuk mgeji satu sama lain. Stress aku. Lepak laaa...

"I know the fact that I might not the brightest star but i really hope I never fail to glow in the dark no matter what-zackyun"

Hoho-merepek aku smp dpt jumpa Encik Faisal tehrani. ^_^


After settle bab handphone aku kat Low Yat with Fit n Jolie yesterday. Meha called me meet her in PWTC, Pesta buku. Dgn kgilaan aku, aku pun jln kaki dari chow kit ke pwtc. Ja'a, No'in and Nani pun ada. Biasalah, aku borong 5buku. 2buku Faisal Tehrani (wuik,aku dah ada full collection rupanya!) and 3 buku sajak Isa Kamari. Actually, I wanted to find 1st book Saiful Islam but dah pokai beli 5buku. Haha, dapat diskaun smp rm40+ tu cukup puas hati gak aaa... Then rupa2nya ada encik Faisal tehrani kat booth tu gak, melompat2 laa aku nak amek gmbr. Aku kan peminat no 1 dia. Sampai aku tak heran pun ada Syeikh Muzafar kat situ mahupun hero remaja.


Aku tataw nape meha time ni buat muka. sayang korang dua. hehe. dan dgn bjayanya aku pun balik rumah selepas tu dan tidak study smp skrg. Gila btul lah aku ni.. mcm tak beringat aku nak kena study. Aku kena study macam pontianak laaa lepas ni utk sebulan lagi. waa, i think i dah gemuk balik after for quite some times classmate aku duk soal siasat mcne aku boleh 'nmpk kurus' (berat tak turun pun). Sabar2.

And A purse.
Kena tag dgn aff pasal ape dalam purse/wallet.
Okay. Semalam masa tgh beratur utk nk draw duit kat the mall ada one arabic guy yg ty pasal handphone aku (nokia cikai yg retak dan takde mms tu-aku tanpa segan2 ckp hphone tu harga rm100 aje deh). Aku suspicious dia mcm nk 'pukau' (skrg kan kes2 mcm tu byk).but dia mcm tkedu lps tgk uncang dompet aku. Muka dia brubah,msti tak jd.haha.

apa ada dlm dompet aku.simple giller.
1. IC -yg dah patah tepi sbb tmasuk dlm mesin basuh.Ari
2. Lesen mmandu (yeay untul 2010)
3. Great Eastern medical card.
4. Touch n Go - tinggal rm1.20, dah lama tak top up
5. 4 atm cards - padahal 3 tu dah kempis dalam bank.
6. 2 gmbr passport time kecik.
7. 2 gmbr utk buku log book (emergency picture)
8. Beberapa not duit. I'm a choosy impulsive buyer. I took hours before i decide to buy but when i want it, it means i really want it. I can spend an hour in the shop until at last i decide tak nak beli. But if i want it, within few second i'll be at the counter paying allready.
9. My 2 hostel keys in kg br and serdang. Easy eh.

tue je? haha. i am soo damn simple. org lain je yg difficult to understand how simple I am. Plus actually, i dunt really mind looking tak ellegent langsung. i bought that uncang yg sgt tak fashionable tu only rm5 at UIA convo back few years. no, i dont need a new one eventhough Amy gave me purse milk teddy dan geng5 dah kasik aku purse nike... I am so comfortable.

tag sape?
wan maryam kut..

Hey cepatlaa pontianak, study
Pontianak yang hypersensitive dan suka terbang2. Haha. Suka ati laa aku nak rasa ape.

hikmah kembara..

My desktop pic.comelkan semua org.nmpk sgt gumbira.eventhough takde aku dalam gmbar tu.

Hikmah kembara-mirwana
Di sini kau berdiri berpijak di bumi
menjunjung langit yang luas
Pernahkah kau berfikir
alam penuh rahsia
anugerah yang maha esa

(CHORUS)
Berjalan,bermusafirlah
melihat kebesaran tuhan
yang diciptakan untuk
mereka yang berfikir
dan bersyukur di atas nikmat
dan kurnianya
nilai harganya,iman dan taqwa
bagi hamba yang setia

Tiada beza warna,kulit atau rupa
yang ada hanya insan yang lemah
dengan satu tujuan mencari keredhaan
dan berbudi di bumi tuhan

Fikirkanlah..dimana arah kita
Renungilah..hikmah kembara
menuju kasih
buktikan cinta kita..
kepadanya..
ini kembara kita

Berjalan dan bermusafirlah
untuk melihat kebesarannya
lantas berfikir dan bersyukur
diatas nikmat dan kurnianya
nilai harganya iman dan taqwa
bagi hamba yag setia

Everyear mesti ada lagu tema. masa pro xm1, 2nd year lagu jac gemilang.tu lagu geng 5org yg lain peel.pastu byk lagu but i really cant remember.but my all time faveret song: hikmah kembara.

Hoho-meremang bulu roma aku each time i heard this song.ini pun lagu semangat aku since 3rd year lagi. why?sebab aku memang kaki jalan.dan aku suka berangan jadi traveler. Jeles giller Imah n her geng buat elective kat Dundee. but anyhow,sbnye aku dah berangan nak p bcuti kalau lps xm.hehe.woah.aku tak redi siot nk xm.kak afra htr msg ajak p mjls tunang dia sabtu nie.congrats.tapi kan,macam la aku bole poie eh!waaa...malas giller.ulang alik dari kajang to kg baru ni takdelaa penat sgt.tp mcm otak rasa hectic giler (dasar pelajar yg malas!).

Someone told me about JINX. seriusly, aku tak percaya regardless aku hilang/rosakkn/tak dapat barang. I told him, it's just a test. TUHAN ITU MAHA ADIL!Dan tuhan itu TAK KEJAM! test of our own faith. whether do we attach our heart to this world or not. Life is all about test. and we all can control our own life. .be patient, Allah sentiasa ada plan yg superb utk kita.

Mcm aku tpikir my 'beautiful' muslim friends yg jadik 'tak berapa bijak' p kelab malam,free hair,tak solat,pakai seksi,hanging out with men, adultery and kata this is my life..then up end with HUGE problem (like getting pregnant,std)..Ni jenis ujian kesabaran pertama:sabar mninggalkan hawa nafsu.. . Tapi Nape dorg pikir dorg layak mgambil ujian 'HUGE problem' tersebut dgn langgar perintah Tuhan like that even dorg tau dorg fail dari awal? Like what happend to Sufiah,dat whizz kid became a prostitute. I dunno what had happend to her personally. But I mean, Allah hanya mguji org yg layak mnerima ujian. Bukan kah gitu? we all should believe that we all able to pass 100% until proven otherwise. We all able to say NO to failure!even we fall and stumble, Allah still loves us so dearly.why should we go against HIM?

and pls laa malaysia.oit malaysia people! tgk aje kat SEMUA ipta/s,kita semua ada masalah besar sebegini.tak kiralaa course ape pun amek. (note:aku kan mmg suka kawan dgn semua golongn org tak kira kos,jadik byk cerita aku dah dgr). TOLONGLAA IBU BAPA YANG ADA ANAK2 BELAJAR JAUH2,JADILAH SEORG YANG SUSPICIOUS DAN RISAU LAA PASAL ANAK. (hehe-tp aku tak pernah khianat my parent's trust.tp skrg mcm mak dah risau aku takde kawan rapat laki.hehehe-it's a bliss ape!). I consider myself lucky for being not attractive and hardly to be attract anyone else. i found it is damn hard to trust man. Lagi2 tgk how my friends stumble to this kinda exam. Part tu mmg aku tak berani,tapi part lain..berani aa...

Someone also told me,that i am such daredevil,berani giller. but what people doesnt know how my kgugupan. esp in exam (yeay, i dont like things yang akan confirm my stupidity!) I know i'll fumble whenever i'm nervous. and when i'm nervous,it's means i dont hv much confident due to lack of knowledge etc.and really, i cannot lie. Alisa told me, "hey,tu mnujukkn kau tak hipokrit dlm exam" hello,sepuk kang. it shows how weak I am!

what i really can say,tgk gak laa. i am not afraid doing the dangerous thing all over again if i have very good intention.eg going travel alone. because i am strongly believe that Allah protects me. protects us.from danger.if NOT,there's must always hv something good awaits for us insyallah.just be patient.

if not here,maybe in hereafter.
only if we have good intention.
why should we be afraid?
Oh Allah, protect us.
from things that YOU hate.

anyway...tau tak.kita mmg selalu dapat apa yg kita nak,kadang2 lebih dari apa yg kita mintak malah apa yg diperlukan,cuma kenapa masih tak bsyukur?hati buta ke?huhu

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