would u judge me beyond my face value?

Frankly speaking, I'm neither cute nor small. i'm the kinda of girl that wouldn't appear in any magazine which is misleading definition of beauty. I'm fat. Comot lak tu...I'm photogenic but it doesnt mean i look cute in picture...To me, it means that, i look more horrible in real life rather than in the picture. after all, I wont put on the ugly faces of me... i'm ugly, that's the fact that i have to admit....

not to say i'm not grateful for the face I have. Alhamdulillah, I love myself and my life...My mom used to tell me how ugly am I but then she still insisted me to see my innerside rather than physical appearance.She told me how to be grateful because of I was born without any congenital abnormality. and that's how i grew up happily without thinking hard how to make my face like maybelline model.I didnt spend my money much to make-up or cloth or handbag or whatever girls like to spend. Why? because life is more than being beautiful. Life is beautiful! Alhamdulillah!

People love to teased me how big fat black girl am I.All i did was laugh out aloud..I told myself to take it easy. Maybe they liked to teased me because I just take that just a jokes but trust me, the child inside of me still feeling sad and gloomy.Yeah, I felt little breakdown recently.low-self esteem i guess...

People are sometimes stupid indeed. It's not fair to treat the group of ugly people like the beast. Mentang2 aku nie tak cantik, korang buat aku macam tue... likewise, there was a research about opposite attraction recently. Men love beautiful women but women prefer men with sense of human.I dont want them to be my boyfriend. I just dont want a boyfriend, susah aku tengok orang bercinta nie.kabut..because to me, it's not fair to the elligble couple who cant get married just because they'r still university student...GET MARRIED,DEAR!Kata lautan berapi sanggup kau redahi?tak kan kau maksudkan sanggup redahi lautan api neraka?(i'm promoting Nikah...connecting people in Halal way!!-this is different issue, later on i'll talk about this)

Ask me, I wished I didnt noticed how bad these kinda man treat me than other my cute-looking-clique(this doesnt apply to my classmate only...but to those who involve in activities)

Somehow, i do understand why. People love to see the nice n sweet things but then again, they did not have the right to act like that alhought that's what they believe.

I do understand, people like to judge. but still they didnt have the right to act or say something is bad to other people. IT's VeRy WronG!...am i talking about hypocrite? that's different from this. It's about being nice to each other. Ape ingat kamu2 tue ikhlas ke kalau asyik cakap buruk tentang orang lain? The outcome of this misbehaviour unmistakably very huge than u all thought..

Somehow, all of Allah's creation is BEAUTIFUL. Tanya laa member aku saper yang pernah aku minat(itu dulu-sekarang dah tak tau!!)..even in my old school,the 'keanu reeves' guy had some attitude that makes him so different!I looked beyond the face value because it's just unfair to treat people badly.Maybe this is because I had experienced sadness of misjudging world. And yes, attitude contribute to the beauty of the people. and i had to emphasize that I didnt felt ungrateful but people nowdays like to judge me from my ugly face. To me, I'm not too ugly but then people disagreed. What can I say??I know I'm beautiful no matter what u all say but then again, this is how i felt...

I love to be comot...because that's me. I wanted to people to like me because of me. My attitude. Not because my face value. Not because of my money(which i'm not rich!!)

Because I know I have much much more abilities than the beautiful girls out there. That's what i believe.Stupid people would say i'm not an interesting and boring people because of my ugly face. Only certain 'intelligent' people out there know how to judge me beyond my face value.

so which group are u?

Dammit, I just love my life!