In the nick of time

Ramadhan will be leaving me soon. Gosh, i really thought that i have enough time to khatam alquran, infaq, zikr, solat sunat etc. but apparently not. I thought i could also reduce my weight. but it's not. I thought i would have better control of my temper....but okay sikit kot..setan takde.hehehehe

Astagfirullah.

On last Saturday, when I was about leaving my hostel to go out to meet my old schoolfriends in jalan TAR, i saw al-quran lying on my table. I failed to achieved my target. It's my guilty concious mentioned it several time to me. I said to myself, "dont worry, u have 1 week holiday,u might be able to finish it!"


But then, i got chills & rigors fever which made me to bed-bound for the next day. Today, to my own surpise,i got so little time left to khatam al-quran unless i really really really determined to khatam it!

I dunno, i got this weird feeling all over again. I want to be good but sometimes my laziness and my bad habits really annoyed me, a lot. And the time is running out. My relationship with time was poor actually. Perhaps it's urge to grow up..?

pic: kucha, shawn, meha, k.ita, mastot and me.

Yeah, time is the only thief we can't get justice against. and funny how my little pra-reunion between my bestfriends during school days event happened. K.ita was doing her forensic posting here last week and i asked shawn&wani to meet her up. Meraikan kawan tu penting bagi aku. Accidently si Meha & mastot were in KL for some other reason just drop by to meet up. Although honestly, i tak puas hati btul because everyone like crazy go for shopping that day, but it feel great to meet up our friends ... although tak sesuai betul jumpa kat jalan TAR or SOGO. I end-up playing around with meha's new phone camera with k.ita in butik sentuhan jelita (haha-nama kedai jiwang betul!) and accidently I bought 1 japanese blouse which only cost me rm9. haha-kau raya ape ni, kiah?

Mastot told me that i hadnt change as she looked at my sneaker. Okay, i'm the only one who still wearing adidas sport shoe while my other friends wore sandal. i like to be comfortable. I'm still comot2... hehehe.. i havent meet some of my friends for 5 years, it's funny to look at the past. We should meet up in any place and spend for 5hours minimum!

Ironically, it's also funny how last week some of my classmates kept asking why do i wear pink colour bag and jadik kemas sikit. and some of the boys asked me why suddenly I became feminine? Hey, i'm a female, does anything wrong with that? i know they were soo innocent asking that question. That's why most of the time, i was pretending that i was deaf secondary to mp3. hehe.

Fana told me not to waste any time anymore. I should be brave and improve myself in acutely. Fit told me to open up my heart. Yeah, for the past 5years of waiting and time had left me with only another emergency 6months to become a perfect person. I thought i had enough time. but then, it's not that i dont care but it's Allah decision, right? I'll do the best and Allah will do the rest, right? Allah holds our heart and HE knew what's the best...Never in my life want to be some weapon of syaitan! nauzubillah!

looking to the future: Meha the engineer. Mastot the nurse's lecturer. me still the undergraduated stdnt!

Time is a great teacher, but unfortunately it kills all its pupils. I could not denied how impatient am I to wait for next 6months. 6 months. 4more posting to go: anaes, ortho, paeds and o&g. But then, i'm so scared how unmature am I. Herm, nampak gayanya si kiah has to read and study during 2 weeks of holidays. I dont want to regret all over again!

Imagined, if tmrw I die... would u guys forgive me for the mistake that I did in the past. Never in my life would want to hurt anyone. I know how emotional I am. If tmrw i die, where would be my place after death? would be heaven? amin! would be hell (nauzubillah).

seriusly, i dont want to waste my time......!it's time to be big girl now...big girl dont cry =(

Allah provides! amin!

p/s: Happy eidul fitri. Maaf zahir batin.

Mrs Cheong?

kanak2 gembira.

when do u want to grow up?
dunno.

Yeah, my intention to change my fs name to Mrs cheong mainly bcz i had enough of my own stupidity for not giving my full strenght and brain to work harder for my study. Gosh, tinngal lagi setengah tahun sehingga aku dapat lesen untuk mjadi tabib.aku harap bukan lesen untuk mbunuh!takutnya!

kelakar jugak sampaikan ramai kawan2 aku htr testi/private msg kat aku ttg istilah Mrs tu.huk.Mrs Cheong tu hanyalah watak anjakan paradigma aku sahaja deh!dunt worry, i'm still myself, only better (i hope!) bak kata Fitness First!

Aku dah abes xm last week. Teruk jugalah aku buat. Aku geram sebab aku rasa aku tau jawapan tapi macam biasalah, aku memang sedikit gemuruh dengan muka kerek lecturer aku! Uh, napelah aku penakut!Yeay, aku cuti 2minggu lepas nie. Nampaknya aku kena mengadap buku jugaklah untuk prepare diri ke Pro xm. Aku kena.wajib.harus.mesti GRADUATE dan naik pentas bulan 8!

Ramadhan kali ini aku lalui dengan sederhana. Terawih kat Masjid Kg. Baru yang semakin hari semakin tipis safnya (termasuk aku jua-owh!). Aku suka Imam yang baca cool giller! Entahlah, aku tak tau kenapa..perjalanan ke Masjid dengan kengkawan aku tu aku rasa macam sejuk nyaman sekali walaupun kitaorg melatah sebab budak2 kecik main mercun sepanjang jalan!

Makan pun biasa2 je, aku tak gemar makanan bazaar sangat. Cuma tadi makan dengan Azi,sheena&fit kat Garden cafe (scholar tak masuk lagi,jadi kais pagi,makan pagilah!). Aku makan sedap setiap minggu sebab aku balik rumah setiap minggu, zetty adik bongsu aku balik rumah mestilah aku balik! sebabnya boleh bawa dia jalan2 kat taman permaianan main jongkang jongket dan buaian kat situ! Sian dia,zaman keciknya (dia dah umur 15tahun!) dia tak boleh nk main sangat sebab bentuk muka bumi berbukit bukau sebelum sampai ke taman permaianan dimana bila sampai je, dah letih nak main! Mak aku pun tak sangat sebab takde semangat kejiranan kat Damansara tue. Kat kepong pulak, banyak sangat si candy &rakan2, najis mughalazah merata2 kat situ!

Utk 2minggu ni,aku berjaya mhabiskan 3novel (ceh,novel! kata dah insaf? Aku ikut nasihat lecturer aku untuk improve english aku je..hahaa!)

First buku: amy's wedding yg aku beli kat klcc,ayah aku blanja.hehe. aku pun tataw nape aku beli,tapi aku rasa sebab cover dia warna pink (aku suka warna merah,tapi pink tu dekat dgn merah,kan? alasan toyer bila org tgk aku beli beg warna pink.tukar taste pun tak leh ke?) dan caption dia, "who needs groom anyway?" buku tu mcm ringan utk otak aku,jadi aku kasik upah gula2 utk otak aku. well, buku tu aku rasa memang sangat moral,ada kekuatan watak amy mbuat pilihan walaupun satu dunia macam tak suka dengan pilihan dia! Yang kelakar giller, Amy terpaksa pergi honeymoon tanpa suami! psycho abes! best laa jugak dengan komedi bersahaja dia. owh,novel ini takde cerita lucah, tue yang paling best!

Buku kedua: bila tuhan bicara oleh Faisal tehrani. herm,aku tak tau mengapa tapi aku sedikit (byk) kecewa dengan jalan ceritanya dan prasa ayat -sedapnya aku mgutuk! mcmlaa pandai mnulis sgt...bukan laaa,aku memang peminat setia Faisal,semua buku dia aku balun je beli macam mana aku balun beli cd/kaset raihan. tapi entahlah,aku rasa buku tu sedikit tawar kerana mungkin tidak ringan,tapi siapa boleh absorb fakta2 begitu sahaja tanpa pengolahan isi2 yang nampak seperti 'cut&paste' sahaja atau sengaja mengatakan, "hey aku tau fakta ini"..Tambahan pula mungkin tak wujud klimaks dlm cerita tu kot. aku tak nmpk jln cerita yg kukuh atau watak yang kuat (aku hanyalah pbaca novel yang amateur sahaja).Aku tak tau mengapa Faisal suka describe Permasuri Dunia baru macam perempuan gersang seperti mana sama macam watak perempuan dalam Advencer Peniup Sang Ney. Owh,aku memang pantang perempuan diberi watak seperti itu, nape tak de lagi watak perempuan seperti Nyemah Mulya dlm 1515 atau Nusaibah dlm kombat?Mahupun Salsabila dalam Tunggu teduh dulu? memang realiti, byk perempuan gersang yang menjadi senjata syaitan,tapi kan banyak 'bidadari'2 kat dalam dunia walaupun 'bidadara' kurang peka kerana betapa mereka ini tidak outstanding dengan senjata syaitan?

Aku memang sangat berharap Faisal boleh buat keajaiban seperti mana ketika aku mbaca 1515 (aku rasa terbaik), kombat,detektif indigo, peniup sang Ney dan tunggu teduh dulu dimana memberi kesan dan perubahan dalam hidup aku. novel faisal yang terdahulu: rahsia ummi, maaf dari syorga,cinta hari2 rusuhan & beberapa buku yang aku tak igt namanya tidak memberi impak yang besar. Novel 'bila tuhan bicara' terlalu klise dengan novel2 islamik lain sampaikan aku ternanti2 bila ayat2 tajam hasil Faisal dapat mguris tompok2 hitam dalam hati aku. Aku tau, Faisal banyak letak ayat2 al-quran dalam buku itu,tapi dimanakah aplikasinya? Kisah 3 orang lelaki yang mengalami seperti kisah ashabul kahfi. entahlah,aku jenis kinestic learner, aku perlukan pergerakan bukan ayat/fakta semata2!

Buku ketiga: Harry porter and death hallow.
Ok,aku ketinggalan dari sejuta penduduk dunia sebab aku lambat baca. Sebabnya aku tak berebut ke Carefour. Malas merupakan alasan yang kuat. Novel milik Khalis ni abes aku khatam dalam masa 3hari. Sekali lagi, aku rasa mungkin aku kena ubah2 penulis kot, baru aku rasa seronok dengan penulisan yang berbeza2 setiap kali aku baca. Aku memang bengang kalau apa yang aku agak/predict dalam jalan cerita, itulah yang terjadi dalam novel tue. aku sukakan sesuatu yang membuatkan aku rasa terkejut dan terkasima lalu mjatuhkan novel dan mcederakan ibu jari kaki aku. Itu baru impak besar!
Aku baca buku terakhir j.k rowling ni hanyalah semata2 aku nak tau ending encik Potter yang sangat beremosi itu. The only thing I like about this novel is the seriusly sincere love which Severus Snape had for Lily Potter. Terlalu melampau barangkali kot, tapi cool giller Snape tersebut! Yang lain tu, bila dia tulis, "studify", aku belasah imagine bunga ape aje apentah sbb manalah aku ingat semua fakta tue,tahun lepas aku baca buku no 6 tue. dan sekali lagi buku ini mengecewakan aku sebab nak bunuh Voldermolt ni mudah sekali walaupun leceh.Plot yang aku boleh agak! kecewa!

Mungkin ini semua petanda menyuruh aku habeskan baca Bailey&love, Mannipal, Browse, Garden dan Harrold Ellis? Weih, 8minggu mengadap Surgery,cukup laa ayat2 fakta tersebut! (alasan!)